Let's just make a list of reasons as to why I'm stressed out. I'm making this post for me, I apologize for the rant!
1) I only have a few days left in Michigan. I've been bugging people to hang out for the past month. Suddenly, the last week I'm here, everyone wants to do stuff.
2) That wouldn't be a problem if I didn't have a ton of things to do this week already. Like 2 months worth of laundry...cleaning out the abyss (my car)...working until the last day I'm here...job hunting...lots of legal stuff...bluh.
3) The few people I have said my 'good-bye's to-well, those hang outs made it really sink in that I'm leaving, and although I'm excited to move, it was extremely depressing. I didn't realize how much I'm going to miss some of the things here. You don't know what you've got 'til it's gone!
4) Some friends of mine turned out to royally suck. They would decide to do this right before I leave. -facepalm-
5) For anyone else that doesn't know, well, let me explain. I have Low Serotonin Syndrome. This causes a whole slewww of issues. Serotonin causes your body to function properly (for a lack of better words). When under stress, serotonin is supposed to kick in to keep you relatively sane and feeling fine. I lack serotonin, so when I'm under stress, I start getting physically ill, have bad headaches, fatigue (or insomnia, it varies), and I have trouble remembering things that I should NOT be forgetting (Working, eating, etc). Stuuupiiid.
6) I need to come up with $300 for rent by the 28th or as close to that amount as possible. I also told James that I'll pay for utilities while I'm jobless in TN. Simply because I know that the job situation is causes problems for them down in TN, and seeing as I have SOME funds left, I thought I'd help out. I know it'll come back to me eventually, but for right now, I really can't afford it...so...when I get there, I'll be almost completely broke. Lovely.
7) I wouldn't be so bent out of shape about it if my computer's charger didn't die last night. Made it to Best Buy 20 minutes before they closed and threw away almost $100.
8) All of these 'hang outs' I'm having with the exception of one is going to cost me money. I'm not happy about that.
9) I was planning on going to TN with $1000. Then $700. Then $500. Minus $300. That's $200. I need my tax returns to come back to me ASAP. -whimper-
10) I want to find a retail job that will let me keep all of my piercings in. I bought retainers for them just incase I have serious trouble finding a place to work...I have a feeling I'll be wearing those stupid piercing retainers.
11) I won't have a car when I'm there. Nor will I have a bike when I get there. So...my job opportunities better be within a 3 mile radius of the apartment.
12) I. hate. change.
13) I need a few hundred dollars to fall from the sky and it's never going to happen.
14) I have a choir audition the first week I get to TN. Holy. Crap. Normally I wouldn't be bothered because I've worked with a vast majority of the directors in the Michigan area. None of the directors in TN have any idea what I've done. My sight reading ability has reached a record low. -nervous-
Anyway...yeah, I just needed to get that out there. If I seem a bit snippy lately, that's why.
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My dear YV, I understand all about the stress you've been under and the anxiety you're experiencing.
It's going to be a big change, but trust that things will work out. Big hugs.